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God is always there!

I'm headed to Arizona tonight or within a couple nights anyhow...and I know its due to my love and trust in God, even when things seem desperat

I was working on getting to Az per a job that offered a place to stay. When I could not find the means to get there for this job part of me started to worry  that i would lose this opportunity. But I knew it was not wise to doubt God, after all he prepared this all right before me. So I knew in my heart now was not  the time to start doubting! I thought I may have to go to a shelter to stay awhile here nearby me, but I kept faith. Then I contacted an old friend of mine who  said I was always welcome in her home. That took of some fears and pressures. I thanked God, cause he knew I was very frightened of having to possibly go to stay in a shelter. Keeping faith, I continued to make calls to find help to get to Az and this promising job. Nothing was coming. I told my fiance in Az, that we must  keep our faith and with me having to move out of my parents that God was closing one door and another shall open. Then I found out I could get a plane ticket  much cheaper then a bus ticket, through another contact I made. At the end of that day my mother asked how my searches went and I told her about the deals with the southwest airlines. Then I proceeded to ask if I could stay here until the time of the flight because in order to get it cheap I couldnt leave til the middle of August. My dad immediately said "NOPE".  I was very upset. I didnt show it downstairs but came to my room and cried. I told my fiance later what happened and I was still pretty hurt by it.  I told my fiance that God does close doors and for a reason. ( I know we tend to hold on to what we have out of fear of moving forward) I told my fiance I had to find away to forgive my dad for making me feel so abandoned and that this was God just saying NO now is the time to move forward in faith, what\ are you going to do with this?) So I told my fiance I had to find a place to stay if I didnt come up with the means to get to Arizona and to this job. That is when I called the old friend. Of course she would accept me with open arms, we were like family.  I told the fiance after this acceptance from the friend that I was not going to lose faith  and that where ever God leads me is where I will go. If that means to Arizona or to Friends it didnt matter I would go where he would have me go. ~~~~~~~~~~The very next day (Thursday the 30th) my mom comes home from work and calls me downstairs. She told me to make sure I got my stuff ready to go  and that she would out of her check be paying for my trip to AZ and to make sure I contacted the Lady about the job. I contacted the lady and left a message. I was shocked at this news from my mom and had went upstairs without a thank you. So after placing call I went back downstairs and thanked her and asked my dad for a moment of his time. I apologized to him because mom said he was hurt that i asked her and not him and explained to him that i was only talking at mom because she asked about my search and did not mean  the question to be soley at mom. And of course I immediately thank'd God. And later that evening I got the phone call back and the lady spoke with me and told me she wanted to  give me the job. Later I thought to myself. I know sometimes God tests our will and our faith to just hold on to him. This is for our benifit so that we grow. And I knew the incedent  with my Dad was a test of how I would handle my current situation. Would I continue to give it up to God not knowing what the next moment or day will bring for me.  I am glad that I kept my faith and held on to his love and trusted in him. I know because of that faith he made my parents see it in their hearts to pay what they cannot  truly afford at all, my trip to Az.

God is always there!

I'm headed to Arizona tonight or within a couple nights anyhow...and I know its due to my love and trust in God, even when things seem desperate. 

I was working on getting to Az per a job that offered a place to stay. When I could not find the means to get there for this job part of me started to worry  that i would lose this opportunity. But I knew it was not wise to doubt God, after all he prepared this all right before me. So I knew in my heart now was not  the time to start doubting! I thought I may have to go to a shelter to stay awhile here nearby me, but I kept faith. Then I contacted an old friend of mine who  said I was always welcome in her home. That took of some fears and pressures. I thanked God, cause he knew I was very frightened of having to possibly go to stay in a shelter. Keeping faith, I continued to make calls to find help to get to Az and this promising job. Nothing was coming. I told my fiance in Az, that we must  keep our faith and with me having to move out of my parents that God was closing one door and another shall open. Then I found out I could get a plane ticket  much cheaper then a bus ticket, through another contact I made. At the end of that day my mother asked how my searches went and I told her about the deals with the southwest airlines. Then I proceeded to ask if I could stay here until the time of the flight because in order to get it cheap I couldnt leave til the middle of August. My dad immediately said "NOPE".  I was very upset. I didnt show it downstairs but came to my room and cried. I told my fiance later what happened and I was still pretty hurt by it.  I told my fiance that God does close doors and for a reason. ( I know we tend to hold on to what we have out of fear of moving forward) I told my fiance I had to find away to forgive my dad for making me feel so abandoned and that this was God just saying NO now is the time to move forward in faith, what\ are you going to do with this?) So I told my fiance I had to find a place to stay if I didnt come up with the means to get to Arizona and to this job. That is when I called the old friend. Of course she would accept me with open arms, we were like family.  I told the fiance after this acceptance from the friend that I was not going to lose faith  and that where ever God leads me is where I will go. If that means to Arizona or to Friends it didnt matter I would go where he would have me go. ~~~~~~~~~~The very next day (Thursday the 30th) my mom comes home from work and calls me downstairs. She told me to make sure I got my stuff ready to go  and that she would out of her check be paying for my trip to AZ and to make sure I contacted the Lady about the job. I contacted the lady and left a message. I was shocked at this news from my mom and had went upstairs without a thank you. So after placing call I went back downstairs and thanked her and asked my dad for a moment of his time. I apologized to him because mom said he was hurt that i asked her and not him and explained to him that i was only talking at mom because she asked about my search and did not mean  the question to be soley at mom. And of course I immediately thank'd God. And later that evening I got the phone call back and the lady spoke with me and told me she wanted to  give me the job. Later I thought to myself. I know sometimes God tests our will and our faith to just hold on to him. This is for our benifit so that we grow. And I knew the incedent  with my Dad was a test of how I would handle my current situation. Would I continue to give it up to God not knowing what the next moment or day will bring for me.  I am glad that I kept my faith and held on to his love and trusted in him. I know because of that faith he made my parents see it in their hearts to pay what they cannot  truly afford at all, my trip to Az.

God Bless

Lady O'Dwyer

   CAT, my lady, thank you so very much from the depth of my spirit! When I first came here I was not quite sure about staying. I nosed around abit and seen just was not sure.  I realized while its hard to ask others for help I could utilize this blog to just be me. I do have abit of trouble asking for help but as I moved along I realized something new...... just knowing I was not alone, that others too needed to be heard too, became very healing to me. All my life I have been a caregiver, and it seems that letting others know that I was in need too opened a new door in my life. That may seem funny to some, but I know those here at aidpage with us can relate. I have always known I could just be me, but many places we go in life we seem to be made to hide abit of who we are. Here at aidpage, I don't have to hide a thing. The things that trouble my soul the most...if I want to share them I can share them. And then I can see others that share their life and that opens me up to share more intimately some of the details of my life. I know it comes in bits and peaces for me. But I cant rush a good thing heheh healing takes time. And I can only hope that sharing my struggles, my faith, my depression or happiness, or whatever it is I am drawn to share...I can only hope it touches someone else. Just as so many of you have touched me.

My Lady, you were one of the very first who truly saw me and you shared that with me. Whether you knew this or not....I needed that. With one touch, your soul reaching out to mine... I began to heal.  Because you reached out to me it gave me the courage to start sharing more of "me" with others on my blog here and to even start reaching out to others with sharing my thoughts or prayers for them on post back comments in their blog.

This is a beginning for me. And I am very honored and blessed to have you in my life. And I would be most honored to stay here with the aidpage family. I may have to be gone for a time due to uncertainty of internet where I am going. And it is out in the country by about 25 miles. But don't you worry...I definitely will be back!!!!!!!! this is like a home to me, a gathering place of like souls. Well, I just cant leave family!

Many blessings my lady, my friend!

Thank you so much!!! Oh I cant wait to get there lol heheheheh I'm so so so excited. Well I may not be able to get online for abit..I'm not quite sure on that yet. But the important thing is that thru everthing I just kept faith and as wall as continual prayers I am very glad those here prayed and had good thoughts on this working out for me.

I know some people may not have understood my aidpage and why it wasnt full of just advertisements. But those of you that enjoyed my pages here I appreciate it. Creating is my peace and joy in life. And every once in awhile I get to share abit more about myself with others here. And I have enjoyed that tremendously! I am not a big one to ask for someone to meet my needs...prayers and thoughts go such a long way.

I came here looking I think more to be able to voice my needs and not feel alone. Everyone has things in life and life is getting pretty hard on everyone. I am glad I came to Aidpage to check it out and even more so that I decided to joiin. I consider you all another part of my family! 

I will stay on here! I love it! and love you all! yeah yeah I said love. There are many depths of love, I know, and to some is a strong word LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE hahahah hehehehe but thats just who I am!

thank you sheshe .... you bet i'll be staying on!

cant up and leave my family just because something good has happened now can I? lol... nah now I'll just have more to talk about hehehehhe.

Sometimes Love knocks us all down...but you have to get back up again! And one day, you will find the love of your life.

Baby, despite all we have been thru in life, before we met...I am glad we got back up....and now together we are building a life, one that will last thru eternity!

Love,

Lady O'Dwyer

   As of now I have not found means to get to Arizona. Sadly,  I am sure the lady will have to hire someone else to care for her mother. However I have continued in my faith that I would not be left in the streets to try and care for myself alone and unsafe. I have contacted my cousins ex-wife whom I have always remained friends with. When I explained what was going on...she instantly said "Come stay with me....I have a huge house...I could use some help its too big for me to clean...you are always welcome here with me...." Although she could not financially afford to help me make the trip (and I didnt ask her for help either way), she opened her home to me.

    I may not be on here much for the next couple of months. I am not sure if she has internet. But rest assured I will check back in briefly from time to time when I visit the local library! I still plan on making the trip to Arizona. My love and I are engaged to be married. None of that has changed. I can only go the route God lays before me and know with uncertainty that my love and I will be just fine.

 God Bless and see you soon

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Thank you rosie for the resources on your page. I also just wanted to let people know there are free ways to obtain medical help when they have no money and no health insurance. I will be adding some resources to this page as well soon!

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